Dawn of Reality

A month has gone by since the first poem I wrote
So it's our anniversary if I'm not missing the boat
Our days have remained about the same
With neither of us giving an inch or taking the blame

But out of the blue yesterday
You opened up in a brand new way
It made me happy and then kind of sad
Because this talk we've already had

Though we may not act like Romeo and Juliet
We're still holding on, on that you can bet
Maybe this misery we can somehow put behind
And make a new life if we just use our mind

Our love for each other comes from our hearts
All we need do is our very own part
This relationship we must fix to keep it alive
Then we could be happy if we just strive

We both know when the other has been wrong
But we need to judge ourselves if we're to be strong
Since the talk we're doing a little better
We're holding up but not quite to the letter

Several hours have passed since I first started this
And already we've had a break in our bliss
We've been given three weeks to leave
Then to this home we can no longer cleave

When we find ourselves surrounded by trouble
You'd think our solidarity would surely double
But the truth is that's when you treat me worse
And if we were married I'd want a divorce

I've now learned some things I don't really like
And I think I should just take a hike
I never knew you were filled with such hatred
But I would have known if I had used my head

You always talk of my family, friends, and children
And I've realized I'm not even included, to my chagrin
Do I mean so absolutely nothing to you
That it doesn't matter if you make me happy or blue

Then the answer I knew, I was not important to you
And that realization doesn't even make me blue
You want to be loved without getting any burns
My mistake was to assume you wanted to love in return

Now it all makes so much sense to me
I'm just surprised it took me so long to see
You want someone to love you and never be down
Even when love for you can not even be found

I guess all you want is nothing more than arm charm
Who you can disregard without causing alarm
She could be treated without any concern
Taking everything out on her so she will learn

That's why you are so self-centered and selfish
And any of my needs remain just a wish
It's why others are so much more important
And why my requests you never grant

At first I thought you simply weren't aware
But it's really something of which you just don't care
That's why my wants and needs are never requested
And the only time you ever really want me is in bed

I'm not a part of your home, life, or heart
There's nothing I've hid nor nothing you don't have a part
There are some things you have that makes me look aside
Because you have secrets you keep and things that you hide

All previous mementos I've thrown all away
But more and more of yours I stumble upon each day
When I ask you what you want done with them
You tell me to leave them alone as if precious gems

No wonder you don't want me to answer the phone
And why it bothers you to hear me moan
I now know I'm not a part of your life
And why my requests cause such strife

You only want a woman to prove to people everywhere
That you're still wanted even though you are in a chair
You could care less if I want to walk beside you
Cause you're always racing ahead off in the blue

You always spend money to buy yourself things
But what you give me comes from those machines
I never have money of my own to spend
So, for myself, I must somehow fend

You know it's all just further proof
That all you provide for me is a roof
But that's something that I, myself can provide
It's love and tenderness for which I could die

You decide we're having sex without regard to myself
So once again I must put my heart upon a shelf
But I try once more to open your heart
But it just ends up driving us apart

There's this wall between us keeping us apart
And another one that surrounds your heart
Maybe one, but two walls I cannot climb
I need you to meet me in the middle sometime

Now silence is all we've shared for a while
And it's so sad and lonely mile after mile
Out of bed and away from me is where you want to be
So you left me behind for all to see

Closeness is what we're missing I say
You say a smile and a chuckle from me each day
Closeness would bring all that back and more
You say make me happy and you'll get closer is the core

So don't give in even one little inch
And this relationship we'll soon have to bench
Leave in the van from me in disgust
I think it's time I just caught a bus

Divider

You are listening to Dark Side by Eddie and The Cruisers.
I have such an eclectic taste in music that it is hard for me
to pick just the right song but this one seems appropriate.
I really like the movie and the music but this site
is about my slip into the dark side!

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Please do not recreate any of them without expressed permission from me.
My inspiration was my pain and as such is quite personal.
It is my soul that is bared through these words.

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